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Post by Caroline on Aug 31, 2007 9:17:00 GMT -5
Ever have one of those days where you'd rather not wake up in the morning? Where no matter how beautiful a day it is, you just can't force yourself to smile? I'm having another one of those days. It makes me feel even worse because I know I haven't been a good friend to one of my best friends. He's going through alot of stress and I know I haven't been there for him enough. I know he's not trying to force me on a guilt trip, but I can't really help feeling the way I do. I just want to cut off all communication with him, but that wouldn't be the right thing to do. I'm half of the two friends he has. I can't abandon him. But I am having so much trouble taking care of myself at this point. I have only attended school one day, the rest have been spent in bed. What do I do? I know I am going to be so far behind when I return next week. I don't know if I want to go back. Maybe I'll drop out of my classes. But then I'd disappoint my family. My mom's pissing me off...I told her I want to attempt to get SSI, but she won't let me. She thinks I just need to get out into the workforce and suck it up. I can't do that. I ALWAYS find something to hate about people, and emotionally I am not able to work. Why doesn't she understand? Why is it I have to suck it up? What if I can't "suck it up"? Ugh, I want to move out. I want to fade away....just fade away.
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Post by Elizabeth on Sept 2, 2007 1:18:12 GMT -5
You're not bitching too much. I know exactly how you feel. I went through it all before my dad realised. *huggles* I still struggle daily on things.
Elizabeth
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